“Praise the LORD. Blessed is the man who fears the LORD, who finds great delight in his commands.”
[Psalm 112:1 NIV]
Tina writes:
I have always been happy, healthy, and positive with an always present smile. Laughing for me is like a second language. “Why in the world is my foot not working properly all of a sudden?” I asked myself. It has started very gradually to the point where I had to get rid of all my high heel shoes! I figured that it will all be normal again as soon as this ankle “sprain” would heal. But why was I experiencing an ankle sprain when I never remember hurting myself to begin with? Where did it all start from? One day, out of the blue my whole right side started shaking violently all on its own. I was trying hard to stop it, but my commands went unheard… My boyfriend took me to the emergency room and the Doctor said not to worry – “You’re just experiencing an anxiety attack!” Phew! That was weird, but what a relief! I went home and lived happily ever after — until it happened again, and again and again – for about a year!
I found out October last year that there was a tumor in my brain and it was causing me to have seizures not “anxiety attacks” like the doctor put it! I had the operation on November 3rd 2006.
They operated and took out the tumor –as much as the Doctor could without leaving me a vegetable. …..Soooo, this type of tumor is called Astrocytoma - which means it’s in the form of a “star”. I was in the hospital for 10 days with a couple of them chilling in the ICU drugged up on morphine! Remember, I told you that I like to smile and laugh a lot? Yeah… the morning right before my surgery I was making jokes and laughing with everyone around there… I bet the doctors were like: “what in the world is wrong with her??! We’ll definitely be “fixing” that!”
Even though on the outside I was making jokes and laughing, I was sure scared to death! When they began operating….my brain started to tickle really badly!! Well, they must have cut a few of my nerves though because after it was all said and done, I could not feel or use the right side of my body at all!! And I mean the WHOLE right side. It seemed like I was cut in half! There were juuuuuust a FEW things I couldn’t do all by myself anymore… like feed myself, wash, dress, put make-up on, going on field trips to the bathroom, walk - but who needs these things anyway?! I kind of had to learn from scratch again by retraining my brain to do those things… After all, a piece of my brain is missing! The doctor told me that I will NEVER get my feeling back! Yeah, that sucked to hear, but it was not as bad comparing to hearing for the first time the news that I have terminal cancer…Grade 4 — to be sure! Not sure if you know anything about these cool things… but it’s supposed to be the last stage… Would you think that this may be the WORST type to be bestowed with??
Well, before leaving– after my 10 days vacation in the hospital, I asked my Doctor how much longer do I have until I died? In the middle of my jokes and giggles, He said ONE year!
When I got home, I realized that I was really in trouble! I mean, I couldn’t do jack! My sister had to help me with everything!! And I mean everything. Thank God for such a great sister!!! She even moved to GA for me! She lived in VA Beach and she left the beach for me! I also decided that it was best for both me and my boyfriend to separate ways so I can really concentrate on being closer to my family and getting better… so I moved back to GA to live with her.
Well, all this time I thought I was going to die! But I stayed positive and acted like I didn’t have cancer. I went through the whole radiation…and lost all my hair! I had very thick, long and healthy hair. OHHHHHHH how I miss it! But now I see it’s growing back. Thank God! Don’t worry I don’t go around scaring people with my sexy bold head. My sister tells me all the time that it’s impossible for me to look ugly… “You just can’t hide BEAUTY” she says.
I’ve also been taking chemotherapy which makes me really sick and feel like poop! But now it’s only 5 days out of a month- instead of every day. This will last for one year of pure bliss! After that, we’ll see what the Doctor decides…
Well, a few months have passed since the surgery and now I’m soooooo much better… Looking at me, you’d never believe it – unless I took my wig off and showed you the lovely scar! Now I can thankfully say that I can do everything on my own. There is still a little “pimp walk” left, that I’m trying to improve by exercising it every day. My sister’s house has stairs, and even though I was worried in the beginning, it turned out to be a blessing because it really “forced” me to really use and exercise it!
My right side has improved tremendously even though the Doctors told me I’ll never be able to use it. In fact they said I should have been a veggie and also never be able to talk right! Well, I can still speak both Romanian and English! Ha! I showed them!! They were all amazed!
I went to the doctor 2 weeks ago and had an MRI done. Everything looked alright!!!!!!! The cavity in there looked pretty healed and there was no more swelling. THANK YOU JESUS!
Well, it seems that the world is going to be stuck with me for a lot longer than whatever the crazy Doctors said! And here’s a word to the wise: I wouldn’t “completely” trust them if I were you – just in case you’ll ever have to deal with them… Have faith and believe that God is greater than all of them put together and He can do miracles in your life! May your heart be full of sunshine – today and always!
Story posted on Sunday, September 14th, 2008 and is filed under Hope, Illness, Praise, Your Stories, Life Verse. | 1 Comment »