“I’ve Seen the Word Come to Life”
For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves …
Zonnelle writes:
This verse has shown me that the Word has life and purpose.
There are times when I feel that I have no value; I struggle with emotions and fear that the words that people say about me will prevail.
When I was four my grandmother said that I would be dumb because I did not talk. She also said that I would be hopeless in life since I had no mother or father to look after me like my cousins did, but her words failed. I am speaking and living the life God has called me to live.
Last year an incident happened where a particular person in my life angrily spoke some things to me. I took offense, and this started my depression, anxiety, fear and some unforgiveness in my life. I tried to confront this person with the way I felt, but that made things worse because I confronted her with a distorted heart. I realized I needed God to help me with what I was dealing with.
Some people suggested that I read the Word and look for guidance there to help with my situation.
So I took the Word into perspective and began not just reading like I did in the past, but trying to understand what I was reading. Although I am still dealing with effects of this sitaution, I have made a lot of progress and have seen the Word come to life several times.
I would say that there are many more instances in my life where the Bible has impacted me. The Word has continuous power in my life, and it is a tool for me to use in order for me to be truly transformed in Christ.
Please note that the views expressed in this story are not necessarily the views of the American Bible Society. Story posted on October 29th, 2007 and filed under Bible, Your Stories, Struggles.
October 29th, 2007 at 11:43 am
Zonnelle, thanks for sharing so vulnerably. I’m sorry that your grandma didn’t have the capacity to love you well … and I’m sorry for the wounds she inflicted. That must’ve been hard; and I’m sure it’s still hard.
I can relate with much of what you said (e.g., not feeling valuable sometimes, struggling with emotions and fear, etc.)
I loved hearing how the Bible came alive for you during the interpersonal conflict you described. It sounded like you experienced God in a powerful way through the words of Scripture.
Thanks again for sharing your beautiful story.
January 15th, 2008 at 9:09 am
Zonnelle, I understand the harm that comes with unforgiveness, your words: “I took offense, and this started my depression, anxiety, fear and some unforgiveness” was what our Lord revealed to me one week ago how damaging unforgiving offences occure in poor health. Your offence started with depression, anxiety and fear. Unfortunalty, the offence becomes a stronghold for the enemy Proverbs 18:19. I found a “bundle of unforgiveness” in my own life that eventually manifested into poor health. Luke 7:21-23 was healing for me when I found the root of unforgiveness in my heart. Forgiving is a requirement, least He forgives you.